01.25.10 QT, Be Child-Like.

This weekend wasn't the best weekend for me. Bombing SAT's, coming between two close friends, and I've been so negative about everything lately. It's heartbreaking to see the bond between my best friends being shakened. My tolerance is growing thinner, my patience is growing shorter, and my energy is becoming weaker. Not really the best mentaility to have. I've been losing that drive, that spirit. I have to learn to control some of my emotions. My expressions are so noticeable. Whether I'm tired, angry, sad, it ALL shows. I read QT yesturday, but didn't apply any of it. So here's my QT.

Scripture: John 6:1-15

(Verse 9)

"Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many"

(Verse 11)

Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks, and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted and did the same with the fish.

(Verse 14)

After the people saw the miraculous sign that Jesus did, they began to say, "Surely this is the Prophet who is to come into the world."

Observation:

In the beginning of Chapter 6, Jesus tests the faith of his diciples. He asks Philip where he shoud buy bread to feed the crowd following them. Philip shows an immediate negative response ("Eight months' wages would not buy enough bread for each one to have a bite") and doubts Jesus' potential. When God asks a question, He already KNOWS the answer we are about to say. He asks us as rhetorical questions, that already have the right answer. He wants us to know the answer clealy. Andrew, another one of his disciplies, brings up a boy that is willing to share his bread and fish. Andrew shows a glimpse of hope in a hopeless situation. He does not fully believe but shows a "mustard seed" faith. A mustard seed faith can have great power, not because of our human power, but through God's superior power (the power he desperately wants to show us/ give us)

Here is another one Jesus's wonderful miracles. Jesus fed a thousand with only five loaves of bread and two fish. A great crowd was awaiting Him with great anticipation. The crowd saw signs of him healing the sick, and had great expectations and they got what they wanted. A huge miracle, but this could not have been done without the child-like faith of the boy offering his meal.

Application:

Lord, I don't want to have no faith, mustard seed faith, but a child-like faith. Why do we need all these big signs and miracles to prove to us your glory? We need such big signs or a miracle as assurance. We are reluctant to be fully dependent on you because of our instability. Even Jesus' disciples that have been witnessing his superior power still doubted. Lord, I want to be like the boy who offered his meal. Entrusting you to work your wonders. You take something so small given by human works, and make them so BIG. Lord, your majesty is beyond what our human minds can comprehend. It is because of our human tendency to doubt. We're so blinded and discouraged by the world, that the pureness of our faith is growing weaker. We forget that original encounter.

You truly are something out of this world, and someone that wants us to make us a part of your world. Help me to be someone that finds hope in hopeless situations, not become one of the hopeless. I used to be such a bright child that was so excited to live life the you have given me. It's because I'm being shakened God. Lord, my assurance of you though is getting stronger through these QT's God. and I thank you for that.

Currently Listening: Oh You Bring- Hillsong United

Oh You bring hope to the hopeless

And light to those in the darkness

And death to life

And now I'm ALIVE.

Prayer Topics:
1. To have that drive, that energy of God's glory like that of a child. Not blind faith, but pure faith.

2. For my negativity, I don't want to stay so dead, angry, tired. Emotions are strong, and easily shared. Good emotions, bad emotions, both. My anger is something I need to control God. My expression just shows it all.

3. Rain this week again, for God to really pour His blessings upon my mom's restaurant soon.

4. For the reconciliation of my best friends.