02.19.10 QT

02.10.10 QT

Wow, I haven’t posted/shared QT in a LONG while. I’ve been journaling mine lately. OhLord, Forgive me.I apologize for my irresponsibility. I’ve been keeping all the QT to myself..

Today wasn’t the best day for me. LMBO. All nighter, chugging down energy drinks, throwing up in the morning, not going to school. OhJoy.

Lord, I have disappointed you and my mother. Skipping school for stupid reasons like these. My mom says I’m living my life backwards, and how God I really need you to set me forward. No more excuses, no more laziness, and no more letting sleep get the best of me. Anyways, here’s my QT for today.
Scripture: John 11:28- 44

Verse: 40
Then Jesus Said, “Did I Not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?’

Verse: 43-44

When he had said this, Jesus said in a loud voice, “Lazarus, COME OUT!”
The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face, Jesus said to them, “Take of the grave clothes and let him go.”


Observation:
We’re always disappointed in God when we feel like He doesn’t hear our prayers or our cries. We blame Him for our loss but we forget that everything we own or have owned were God-sent gifts. Mary was too upset to face Jesus because of the loss of Lazarus. “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” (Verse 32) Jesus was deeply moved by her cry and hurt. In fact, the shortest verse of the bible is written here. “Jesus wept.” (John 11:35) He understands our pain, troubles, anguish, hurt, hopelessness. “If you love me, why would you let this happen?” That’s something we always question God, and ask God in times of trials. We even feel betrayed. Imagine how God felt each time. He cries not only because he feels our hurt, but also because of the hurt we give him. We forsake God so much. Why do we always blame God for what Satan is doing? Satan wants us to blame God, he wants us to stray away from him with these tribulations. We aren’t to stray away but face Him in situations like these. God seeks those seeking Him. We are to seek for Him even harder instead of wandering away. That’s the part of believing, Faith.


Application:
From this story, I’m like Lazarus. Dead, inactive in the tomb, and waiting for God to call me out. That’s how I was today. Spending my whole day sleeping. I’m just waiting for some miracle to happen, instead of being the miracle God can use me to be. I would see the glory of God if I just believed. Our faith is shaken so easily. We stray away due to little doubts. God doesn’t send us a struggle we can’t over come. These struggles aren’t to overwhelm us to the point where we can’t seek God anymore. We are to seek God even in the darkness, and look harder. If we pay attention to the darkness too hard, the light seems smaller. I see God too small. He can do such great things, but I view my problems to be bigger than they are. If I truly believe, I would see God’s glory instead of just the problem caused by doubt. Focus on what really matters Esther.


Currently Listening:
Angels Sing- Press Play
“You see, see in me what I cant see
Believe in me in my unbelief
Strengthen me when I’m so week
Cuz you know I love you”

Prayer Topics:
1. QT Consistency
2. Thank God that Sansui went well on Valentine’s Day.
3. I’m already struggling health and school wise without work. I’m scared about when I do work…