Birthday QT

Doodee. Today, I felt soo blessed.
No jokee.

I really feel like my friends are God-given angels.
Karin, Aya, Troy, Christina, Deborah, Will, Julie, Jae. Everyone! They all brightened my day.
Today, I got caked, cried tears of joy, got suprised by a mob of people. haha' Its a very memorable day. I got an Ipod, scrapbook, 2 cakes, a cross, a flower, and lots of hugs. was really indifferent towards today in the morning. At lunch, I was so overwhelmed with joy that I started crying. I was so touched.

Lord, what the hell have I given to deserve such great gifts. Not just the materialistic stuff, but God FRIENDS..I realized how blessed and lucky I am to have friends that care so much for me. Lord, thank you's won't be enough to even begin how much I appreciate you, and the angels you've given me.

I really felt loved and it was really encouraged.
The love God has shown through my friends gave me the encouragement to contact my dad again.

I haven't had cake in two years, due to personal issues. but today, I had two..
Thanks so much guys, for all your efforts and sacrifices. Today was very memorable and treasured.

Anyways, Here's my birthday QT.
I've been journaling lately so I haven't been sharing my QT online.

Scripture:
John 8: 48-59
Verse: 50
" I am not seeking glory for myself;but there is one who seeks it, and he is the judge."

Observation:
Jesus is not a false prophet, and when he was preaching in front of the temple. The crowd accused him of being demon-posessed. As humans, we always think our way is best. That "my" way is the ONLY way, and there is no other way to do it . We resent any thought that goes against ours or brings us discomfort. THIS IS PRIDE. We want to do things on our own, and do it greater than God. What makes us so great that we should even assume not needing God? We're so stubborn in wanting things our own way, that we never search for God's way. Our greed, our pride prevents us from fully experiencing God's plan. Pride, is the one thing that God hates most. It was the first sin ever committed. All the things we put above God, are idols. God gives us everything we have. It's all HIS. He shares with us, and gives us gifts we don't deserve.
Application:
I am receiving too much. Lord.
Humility is SELF- LESS- ness. Less of oneself, and more of others. I'm very prideful and stubborn.. that's one thing I need to learn to control. God deserves all the glory, honor, and praise. My application is to sincerely pray before starting anything. Listen to God's directions instead of making my own. Or wanting to do things my way. To let my pride down, and to really let God's love flow through me. I want to serve with the right mentaility and heart. I want to practice humility through servitude. Lord, I need to serve you and my friends better.
"Friends are like angels that lift us up when our wings have trouble flying."
Lord, you've brought me angels that really lifted me up in my times of darkness. I broke down yesturday. Thoughts of my dad, hurt, anger, resentment. all of that. But today, you've shown your glory through my friends. That your love is more powerful than any of our selfish anger. I finally emailed my dad today... I don't want to be stubborn anymore. I was so sick of crying, hurting, everytime my birthday came. I really want to let that out one by one, so you can fill that emptiness God. I've been broken due to all these burdens I keep holding onto myself. Too stubborn to let them go to you. Lord, please take them.

Prayer Topics
1. Endurance when I do my judge
2. Appreciation, Lord, thank you for today. everything. All the gifts you've given me, I dont deserve, and freely receive. My friends, family, opportunites, memories, food, a home. Everything... Lord, thank you.
3. A heart to forgive my father. It actually felt relieivng today. I emailed him a message which I haven't done in a while so yeah.