01.27.10 We are HUNGRY! (:

Scripture: John 6:22-29

Verse: John 6:26-29

Jesus answered, “I tell you the truth, you are looking for me, not because you saw miraculous signs but because you ate the loaves and had your fill. Do not work for the food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. On him God the Father has placed his seal of approval.”
Then they asked him, “What must we do to the works God requires?”
Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent”

Observation:

The day after Jesus performed his miracle, the crowd goes into search for him due to their physical hunger. They knew Jesus had the ability to multiply bread and fish in order to feed their stomachs. They approached him with worldly intentions, not to develop a personal relationship with Him. They didn’t realize that they decided to eat the food that wouldn’t sustain them. God offers food of eternal life. Food that won’t spoil, but one that satisfies. We should work hard to earn the food God offers. Doing QT, fasting, praying, evangelizing, going to church, is all different types of food we need to stay healthy. We can’t have more of one, and not the other. We should be taking our meals daily.

Anyways, Jesus is the bread we need to sustain our lives. We should not only focus on our physical hunger, but our spiritual hunger. We should be craving Him every moment of our lives. He SHOULD be something we can’t live without. As much as we work to feed our stomachs, we should work our best to be fed spiritually. If we go too far without it, we shouldn’t be able to function. That’s how desperate and hungry I want to be for Christ. He is the bread that gives us life. His food is something we constantly need to take in. His food is something that we can never have enough of. Even if we constantly eat, and overflow, being filled with God is like a blessing in itself.

Application:

DOODE. Today is the perfect QT for CLUB DAY to come. LMBO.

I LOVE FOOOD. I really do, I should be showing that love for God’s food too. I’m too pampered by the luxury of eating physical food everyday. DANGG. I’m sooo freakin unappreciative. When I pray, I pray for provision, never for thanksgiving or appreciation.

Food is something that brings people together right? By sharing food, you start a personal relationship with the people you share it with. That’s how it should be with God too. We should share God. I believe that God is the food we all crave. All humans crave love, and I believe God is the source of all love. Sacrifice is the ultimate way of showing love. God shared his Son with us, and we should share the same love with others.

As my application, in order to practice my craving for Christ, I plan on fasting tomorrow. Fasting and praying comes hand to hand. Fasting food always helps me realize how blessed I am. Even knowing the fact that I’m able to eat as soon as I finish my fast is something I need to be appreciative about. Praying a prayer of thanksgiving (appreciation), adoration, confession, and provision. is really something I need in order to realize my hunger for Christ. Also, praying with Club Day in mind, tomorrow is the perfect day to fast!. That we’ll be able to be the hands God uses not only to feed others physically (with bulgogi tacos) but also spiritually. Haha’ it’ll be the best meal they’ve had in their lives. I think if all the leaders fast together, while praying for the club, it'll be the most powerful thing ever.

Currently Listening: We Are Hungry- Chris Tomlin

“We are hungry, we are hungry, we are hungry for more you.”

Prayer Topics:

1. For our Fellowship Club to feed a lot of hungry stomachs. (spiritually, and physically)

2. God to really pour his abundance upon my mom’s restaurant, and Club day.

3. For my hunger for Christ to be something I feed constantly.

4. Thank GOD, haha' I was a lot more energetic today(: More positive, and just alive and excited to go through the day

01.25.10 QT, Be Child-Like.

This weekend wasn't the best weekend for me. Bombing SAT's, coming between two close friends, and I've been so negative about everything lately. It's heartbreaking to see the bond between my best friends being shakened. My tolerance is growing thinner, my patience is growing shorter, and my energy is becoming weaker. Not really the best mentaility to have. I've been losing that drive, that spirit. I have to learn to control some of my emotions. My expressions are so noticeable. Whether I'm tired, angry, sad, it ALL shows. I read QT yesturday, but didn't apply any of it. So here's my QT.

Scripture: John 6:1-15

(Verse 9)

"Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many"

(Verse 11)

Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks, and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted and did the same with the fish.

(Verse 14)

After the people saw the miraculous sign that Jesus did, they began to say, "Surely this is the Prophet who is to come into the world."

Observation:

In the beginning of Chapter 6, Jesus tests the faith of his diciples. He asks Philip where he shoud buy bread to feed the crowd following them. Philip shows an immediate negative response ("Eight months' wages would not buy enough bread for each one to have a bite") and doubts Jesus' potential. When God asks a question, He already KNOWS the answer we are about to say. He asks us as rhetorical questions, that already have the right answer. He wants us to know the answer clealy. Andrew, another one of his disciplies, brings up a boy that is willing to share his bread and fish. Andrew shows a glimpse of hope in a hopeless situation. He does not fully believe but shows a "mustard seed" faith. A mustard seed faith can have great power, not because of our human power, but through God's superior power (the power he desperately wants to show us/ give us)

Here is another one Jesus's wonderful miracles. Jesus fed a thousand with only five loaves of bread and two fish. A great crowd was awaiting Him with great anticipation. The crowd saw signs of him healing the sick, and had great expectations and they got what they wanted. A huge miracle, but this could not have been done without the child-like faith of the boy offering his meal.

Application:

Lord, I don't want to have no faith, mustard seed faith, but a child-like faith. Why do we need all these big signs and miracles to prove to us your glory? We need such big signs or a miracle as assurance. We are reluctant to be fully dependent on you because of our instability. Even Jesus' disciples that have been witnessing his superior power still doubted. Lord, I want to be like the boy who offered his meal. Entrusting you to work your wonders. You take something so small given by human works, and make them so BIG. Lord, your majesty is beyond what our human minds can comprehend. It is because of our human tendency to doubt. We're so blinded and discouraged by the world, that the pureness of our faith is growing weaker. We forget that original encounter.

You truly are something out of this world, and someone that wants us to make us a part of your world. Help me to be someone that finds hope in hopeless situations, not become one of the hopeless. I used to be such a bright child that was so excited to live life the you have given me. It's because I'm being shakened God. Lord, my assurance of you though is getting stronger through these QT's God. and I thank you for that.

Currently Listening: Oh You Bring- Hillsong United

Oh You bring hope to the hopeless

And light to those in the darkness

And death to life

And now I'm ALIVE.

Prayer Topics:
1. To have that drive, that energy of God's glory like that of a child. Not blind faith, but pure faith.

2. For my negativity, I don't want to stay so dead, angry, tired. Emotions are strong, and easily shared. Good emotions, bad emotions, both. My anger is something I need to control God. My expression just shows it all.

3. Rain this week again, for God to really pour His blessings upon my mom's restaurant soon.

4. For the reconciliation of my best friends.

Be your best.

It's not my place to complain.
Yet I must say, today is making me a little insane.
I pray that God will be the Mediator,
As I urge for my sisters to come together.
Bonds will not be left broken.
Words will not stay unspoken.
For He makes all things work together for our good.
We will come together as we should.
Another struggle we shall overcome.
For this is God's will being done.

haha' a little rhyme of mine to express my day. yeah, I know it's a little corny. but hey' didn't cheat, and spoke what came out of me.


"You stay the same through the ages. Your love never changes. There may be pain the night, but joy comes in the morning. Your love never fails.

You make all things work together for our good"
- Jesus Culture, Your Love Never Fails.

Mixed emotions. Misunderstanding. Comforting words after today's day.

Today we learned in bible study:
"Be the best student.
Be the best sister.
Be the best daughter.
Be the best Christian."
Our teacher forgot, "Be the best friend." ♥

Not necessarily QT today, but just sharing what I learned this Sunday. Very brief, but just my way of venting. This weekend was pretty blech. SAT's I BOMBED.... and today was just filled with mixed emotions.

Pick up your mat at walk! (:

Scripture: John 5:10-18

Verse: John 4:11

But he replied, "The man who made me well said to me, ‘Pick up your mat and walk,''

Verse: John 4:17

Jesus said to them, "My Father is always at His work to this very day, and I, too, am working." For this reason the Jews tried all the harder to kill him' not only was he breaking the Sabbath, but he was even calling God his own Father, making himself equal with God.

"The man who made me well said to me, "Pick up your mat and walk."

The invalid only obeyed God, for He was the one worth obeying. Jesus performed one of his miracles on the Sabbath. The Sabbath was practiced as a day of rest. For God rested on the 7th day after creating everything, even so I don't think the Holy Spirit was at rest. The Holy Spirit was working through its creations. God never stops working, the Holy Spirit never stops moving, and Jesus will never stop loving. In the same way, let us be constantly at work for the Lord. No law should restrain us besides God's law. The Invalid continued to walk, and continued to obey God's commands instead of the Old law. He found God to be above all else. Not only did he stop there, but after realizing who healed him, he continued to share his testimony. There is no such thing as taking a vacation from God. Wherever we go, He's always there, and there's always something we can do.

Application:

I personally think Sundays (Sabbath) are the days when we need to work our best. "Work" sounds like something we are forced to do. Our duties such as sharing the good news (just as the invalid did) should be performed out of love. I should serve the Lord because I ENJOY Him, not because I feel like I have to. Is it really "work" if it's something we enjoy? Yups, it’s the best job of all(:

My application is to change my perspective upon my way of "serving". Like I said, on Sundays, I tend to lack energy and not work to the best of my potential. Being lazy, using my tiredness as an excuse. None of that should matter if my love for God is overflowing. I loveee praiseleading. It was my way of serving and praising God to my fullest. Dancing and singing my heart out for God was something I enjoyed to do. It still is, but not as much. I praise lead for my Jolly Jumpers (Pre-school kids, 3-5). Haha' it was my favorite thing to do praising with the kids but lately, I feel like it's something I'm obliged to do. I do it merely out of commitment instead of enjoyment. When I return on Sunday, I shall praise my best.

Currently Listening: Devotion- Hillsongs
“I’ve been working, this salvation out on my knees

There’s nothing better than knowing,

We are redeemed.

I’m believing trusting in creative hands,

I’m praying for our world to bow to your plan.

I will take up my cross (haha’ mat in this case)

And follow you Lord.”

Prayer:

- Consistency: Keep doing QT with my best effort, and just keep working. I f'reals am the "Play now, work later" type. It's not working. haha' I want to "work hard, and play harder" when I deserve it. It should be the same in my service to God. "work now, worship harder"

- For today to be a productive day with my work
- Gah, for the rain to stop. I really do love rain, it's really refreshing, but lately' It's to the point where it really effects my mom's business (as the same for other businesses.)

01.20.10 QT(:

Scripture: John 5:1-9

Verse: John 5:7-8

"Sir," the invalid replied, "I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred, While I am trying to get in,someone else goes down ahead of me."
Then Jesus said to him, "Get Up!, Pick up your mat and walk."

- " I have no one to help me when the water is stirred..."

The "invalid" is always looked down upon society. He's always used to people stepping over him, and getting his spot taken. People took advantage of his condition through earthly power. He was bereft of the aid he needed.

" While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me."

Let them have that spot, because God has a greater place for you above all earthly positions. We will never be stepped down upon because God lifts us up to a place of His superior power. The world views us as weak, broken, lame because we are without God's power.

" Get up! Pick up your mat and walk."

Let us break away from our hopeless situation, and have hope in our walk with Christ. Let us not stumble from getting up, but just obey. Earthly power can be stolen, bribed, lost. Superior power only comes through the Holy Spirit. God doesn't give us the Holy Spirit for what we want to do, but for what HE wants us to do. Only through His superior power can we recieve true healing. The invalid found hope through Jesus' help. Through His SUPERIOR power, he makes the hopeless, hopeful, the worthless, worthy, and the lame, walk.

Application:

- In desperate times, I want God to be my only hope. He makes us desperate for His aid. I'd stumble if I tried to get up by myself. I always want to do things with my own strength, my own abilities. I have to stop relying on my worthless earthly strength, and rely on God's superior strength. I'll do that by before taking action, praying first, not after. I think that's how I was for Fellowship Club. Trying to do things my way, not His way. Rely on His strength after, not before I started.

Currently Listening: Healer- Planet Shakers

" I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
NOTHING is impossible for You. "

Prayer Request:

- Time management the rest of this week. To do my hw instead of procrastinatingg. I procrastinate a lot of things, and I'm very unorganized. It shows especially during Fellowship Club too. Putting off things to last minutes, forgetting to remind others, etc.

- Humility, the heart to serve others even those wanting to step on me. The humility to admit my flaws and limits, and let God do His works.

- Like, glorify God through my actions always. Like, honeslty, I don't think my daily actions show I am Christian. If a stranger saw me and saw how I was for a day, they wouldn't be able to distinguish me from a non-Christian. That's really something I need to work on.

I Love Rain ♥

So Refreshing(:
I love the smell of rain.

1.19.10 QT(:

Passage: John 4:43-54

Scripture (verse that got me the most):

" Unless you people see miraculous signs and wonders,'' Jesus told him, " you will never believe."

- John 4:48

Observation:

Jesus rebukes the people of Galilee for not believing in Him without such evidence. I think as humans, our eyes can be used as our double sword. Our eyes either see Him, or see the world. Too much focus on the world, blinds us from seeing God. To be "holy" is to be set apart. We can only be set apart, if God sets us apart. He seeks those seeking Him. We always need such big miracles to prove to us He is there. Always needing proof, evidence. Our faith definitely isn't blind faith, but we always need BIG signs as assurance without completely trusting in Him. Miracles happen all the time. We always want such big things to happen that we let the small things go. God works in mysterious way, and comes like a thief in the night. It's the small things that are the most important. Every moment, we might let one pass by.

I was getting acupuncture a few days ago. I just lied there still for 30 minutes after he was done with the needles. During those 30 minutes, I was listening to my shuffle. I honestly only have 2 Christian songs on that shuffle with like 30 songs. I was just listening to the songs, but the next song I wanted was a Christian song. In my head, I was like. "God, please let it be your song." and the next song that came was Your Name High- Hillsongs. Ierno, for me, it was one of those small miracles that happen everyday. But in order for me to notice them, I had to be still, and seek Him.

Application

We're so distracted by our schedules that sometimes, we just need that time to be still and seek God. God is telling me to wait up, calm down, stop with what I'm doing, and seek Him. Just like He calms the storms to a whisper, I want Him to calm my heart. I'll make that time available by just aside from QT, spend time just listening to praise songs, and praying.

Currently listening to: The Stand- Hillsongs

"I'll stand with my arms high and my heart abandoned, in awe of the one who gave it all. I'll stand, my soul all to you surrendered, all I am is yours."

Prayer Topics:

1. Spirit, vivacity. Lately people say I look dead, and I'm just falling asleep everywhere. It makes me feel inactive and lazy. I keep falling asleep at church, at school. I used to be so spirited and alive. I want to have that energy again, to just be excited by the blessings God has given me.

2. For my mom's restaurant, Sansui, to go well. Buisness has been really bad the past few months. It's raining this whole week also. My mom works her butt off to take care of us, and I take too much of an advantage of that. Financially, our family isn't doing so well. I hope God just pours His blessings upon my mom. Bless her and her restaurant abundantly.

3. I'm looking for a job, I want one when I turn 17 next month.I pray that God will really provide a place for me to work, so I can serve my mom